Divorce on the table, Hoping for miracle

[Groov]

Update...

Well, I have been pondering the role of fear in my life and the removal of that role. It's been good to remove fears and replace them with faith and love. This is not easy to do...

Nightly prayers continue with the kids. Not to much interaction with W in the past week. Have had no contact with OM or his W. I still find it hard to believe that there is an OM... Anyway, that's an unproductive line of thinking.

Had the kids this weekend. We had a lot of fun. D6 and I painted a picture. Got in some good wrestling with S4. I have been preping my place for a friend of mine to move into one of the rooms (paying rent).

W came this morning to pick up the kids for school. Her purple (crazy) is so interesting... She knocks and won't just come in. When son opens the door she asks if she can come in. She needs to go to the bathroom, She asks if its ok... We then have a convo about her work... purple.... I played with S4 a little, then while I was sitting there W brings up Assets again... She asks me if I have done anymore on getting a loan for our place. I told her that I wasn't sure if that was the best direction as the loan payment would go up and be difficult to maintain. She the says to me well looks like you don't want any of the assets and then she laughed... W, trying to be light hearted and non-confrontational... I was not amused... Purple.... D6 had a hard time leaving with W, she put up quite the fuss. I relayed to her that I hear her and understand her. W just says to her it will be ok...

So here I am at work. Trying not to focus on W's behavior. Trying to get to a place of non-fear, a place of love and faith.
I am starting to dread seeing W...

Groov is hanging in there, Still Standing!

Groov