I'm sorry things look bleak right now. Accepting what is is so hard and painful.

Depression is a scary, insidious, unpredictable condition.

Take care of yourself.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss