Well, if the 1% would stick... I really would rather W just say she can't commit, and she needs to process things, than to make these 100% committed statements, and blow them up. I thought I was past the roller-coaster!
After asking for space, she did invite us over for dinner tonight, and we went. (Both kids objected, but I told them only for dinner and chit-chat, 2 hours tops) When I got there, she kind of stood in front of me for a minute, real awkwardly, then she came over and hugged me for what seemed like 10 minutes.
It was a great dinner with W's new recipe for chicken picatta, and all the kids loved it, and ate everything. I picked up cookies on my way, and of course, that pretty much made the night. We hung out doing various things, and had a nice relaxing night. D13 got all choked up because she didn't get the part in the play she wanted, and W talked to her for awhile about her time in school and different parts she didn't get or did. She was very sympathetic with D13, and I think it meant a lot.
Also, in the kitchen while cooking, W pulled me aside and kissed me like crazy, and said, "If the kids weren't here, I'd yank you into the bedroom and make out with you."
Well, I chalk this up as one successful night for me, W, our relationship, and our family. One night at a time!