My nieces memorial was yesterday. I can't even express the amount of hurt and anguish that is felt at this time. I am going to focus on my marriage and relationship here. I am dealing with my loss on my own, but I greatly appreciate every ones support and prayers. That means a lot to me.
During the memorial, W and FIL attended. We only engaged each other for a brief second. We all exchanged a hug. They both said sorry, and I said thank you. We all cried, FIL included. I quickly excused myself and walked away. It brought up more emotion than I wanted to deal with.
here are a few texts back and forth with wife the last couple days, leading up to and after the funeral. W: I hope your day went well. Tomorrow is going to be hard Me: I made it through ok. Tomorrow will be very hard. I am not sure how my sister will make it through. I hope you're doing well. Please give D some extra hugs and kisses from me. W: I will do that for sure. I will play tomorrow by ear. I will see how things go, and perhaps bring daughter to the funeral reception, afterwards. Me: That sounds like a good idea. Thanks
NEXT DAY Me: Thank you for coming to the memorial service. It was a very difficult day for me, for numerous reasons. I hope you are doing well. Please give daughter my love, and let her know that I can't wait to see her tomorrow. W: I will do that. Yesterday was hard for all of us. I just wish we could fast forward past the hurt and hard feelings and work towards building a great friendship. I know that takes time
