Barrybran II - Six Weeks In

[Barrybran]

Journaling:

It's been a few days since I posted here. Nothing much to report to be honest. The honeymoon period wore off and we got back into what I felt was going to be our "normal". My wife told me this morning she had felt us slipping into old routines so it's nice to know I wasn't the only one who noticed.

I'm not 100% sure what she means (so I've asked her to think about it and get back to me) but I can't think of anything good or bad, just day-to-day living. I accepted it as I felt that not everyday can be over-the-moon awesome and that some days are just going to be days. My wife has still been affectionate though less so, I initiated sex yesterday and my wife didn't seem too into it, we've still done things together like going to the gym and a family outing yesterday but other than that it's been business as usual.

My wife told me this morning her back pain had returned after moving back into our bed. She says she thinks it's from laying a certain way and that it may be psychological in that she subconsciously sleeps a certain way with me whereas she slept pretty freely in my daughter's bed. I don't really know how to solve that unfortunately other than me sleeping on the floor until my parents leave. She never said she felt uncomfortable with me though.

I got my DB/DR/5LL books a couple of days ago but haven't had the time to read them so I'm looking forward to getting into them when I have a chance. I feel as though we're moving somewhere and I'm not 100% sure on how to handle this period as she hasn't said she wants to try to mend our marriage but everything is pointing to an acceptance of where we are and moving forward together. I don't want to make this assumption though so I'll read as much as I can and hopefully get some direction.

As I said to my wife this morning, we may take two steps forward and one step back and her bringing it up will no doubt prevent us taking two steps back instead. It's only been two weeks since things turned around so it's still very early in the piece but at least I have a platform to work from. I just have to figure out how to handle the next period.