Wishing You Were Here and then Setting It On Fire

[willbwell]

thanks Portia, reading here has been so helpful to me.
there is some sort of communication with h almost every single day. he texts d almost every day on my phone.
sometimes I do wish he would just leave us alone awhile.
feel like he's getting best of both. gets his space yet gets enough d time to satisfy him. I am upbeat when we talk....
he is funny, mostly his usual, not angry. but then I get my hopes up...
sometimes think, I should move on. in my heart though, I know if he made any movement towards R...the door is still very open here. I am mad at h, but even more so I feel sad.
wish we could talk! that is the hardest part.

I continue to read. I think we will continue status quo/limbo for now.
We did not have a talk with boys about D.
I have a busy semester ahead and h has a busy work schedule.
so I continue on....