I feel ya pal. All I got, and I am not exaggerating was how great the marriage was....right up to me letting her know I found out about her A. Friends and family on both sides still say she loved her marriage and me right up to that point and nobody knew she was down on the M and only happy. Maybe there were clues, I have wracked my brain to no avail but you are right, how can you make it better if you don't know there was an issue? Something you will just learn to accept as I have finally done that it isn't entirely about you. So just keep doing what you are doing and detach.
M17 yrs. me49 xW47 d15 d11
BD1-Jul/11(Affair found out) Therapy 9 months (tried 2) BD2- May/12(sep) Court Jul/13 - I got 50/50 Sold home - Aug/13 Court #2 - Dec/13 Court#3 - Apr/14 ... She lost again We settled.