Mount Everest. STILL Forbidding. Aloof...

[LoisB]

Good Sunday Moooooorrrrrrrning!

I went onto the Mr. Money Mustache Blog. I like. A lot. His blog gave me hope.

The guy who is helping me with firewood and some other tasks came over this morning to look around. He is refusing money and just wants to help. I can't believe how uncomfortable it made me. I felt weird. He's a nice guy and there's a little bit of an attraction there. No worries. I'm not looking for anything right now...but, I was surprised how uncomfortable I felt accepting his help and his kindness. I guess I'm not used to feeling attracted to someone doing nice stuff for me. How sad is that????

I feel so overwhelmed by the tasks at hand. What else is new??

Yesterday, we had a bit fun!! Yes FUN!! Dll, her bestie and me went to the mall. D11 got her ears pierced! I bought some earrings on sale and we had a soft pretzel and walked around the mall. D11 also exchanged a gift for some really cool Converse crossword puzzle shoes. I told her to fill in the blanks with stuff. She won't. I want a pair.

Anyhooo, we had fun.

I exercised yesterday. 50 minutes.

Here are things I've read recently on the boards that really struck me:

NewOutlookNow: I have really noticed my continual, negative thoughts about my situation, husband, his relationship with OW, etc. It's amazing to uncover and discover all this negative self-talk I've been carrying on with in my mind. I guess awareness is the first step toward making a change.

I am beginning to realize the quality of my life begins in my MIND.

Regardless of what's going on externally, I am beginning to see that I have the ability & power to associate whatever thoughts I choose to the circumstances in my mind.

I need to continue taking notice and change the "stinking thinking" in order to create a better quality life for myself - regardless of what happens with my marriage.

UrWorthy: Either way, your actions are the same. Keep to your path. Continue to give them space. Continue to work on yourself. Follow your roadmap. Act with dignity and honor.

This journey is not done in a straight line. It goes up and down and around and back again.

I know that there are days when this just knocks the wind out of you.

But as long as you know who you are and what you are made of, you can get through it.

UrWorthy: He: This is uncomfortable for me. I guess I wanted to say I was sorry. But I know thats not enough. I know I should make it right.

Me: Thank you for that. Are you going to make it right?

He: Um, well, um.

Me: It was really nice talking to you. Have a good night.

I've got laundry going. Kids doing chores. Putting away last little bit of Christmas. Cleaning kitchen. Crossing things off my ToDo List and adding more. Also, reading more of my organization book today and highlighting. :-)