Well, it's been interesting just observing my thought patterns this weekend.
I have really noticed my continual, negative thoughts about my situation, husband, his relationship with OW, etc. It's amazing to uncover and discover all this negative self-talk I've been carrying on with in my mind. I guess awareness is the first step toward making a change.
I am beginning to realize the quality of my life begins in my MIND.
Regardless of what's going on externally, I am beginning to see that I have the ability & power to associate whatever thoughts I choose to the circumstances in my mind.
I need to continue taking notice and change the "stinking thinking" in order to create a better quality life for myself - regardless of what happens with my marriage.
I went to a huge party last night. I saw a man whom I previously met over Thanksgiving weekend (at another event with mutual friends). Since Thanksgiving, I briefly saw him at a holiday party and he sent my a Facebook request afterwards. I never accepted. He then sent me a message on Facebook that he hopes to see me at the big party on Saturday. I never replied. We talked last night and before I left, he asked me out on a date. I told him "thank you" but I'm separated from my husband right now and it's not a good time for me, etc. Regardless, it's just nice to be reminded that there are nice & attractive men out there that will still find me desirable (even though my husband doesn't). It was also a reminder that men like to be pursuers and I've felt like I've been pursuing husband lately (which hasn't felt good to me).
