Bottom of the ninth

[BklynMom]

Hey 2the point dont you think its time for an update!! We miss you - hope you are well.

I highly recommend everyone especially the moms on this board to google the Shriver Report. Maria Shriver's research into the poverty associated with being the main bread winner and care taker in a family.

It really hit home.

I am blessed that financially I am have a good well paying work but I see how impossible it is being a single mom even though I am lucky enough to be in a good place financially. My parents both help me with my kids, babysitting and my mom helps clean around the house. I also have a maid service come 1-2x a month and its still impossible.

I just want to remind all of us that what we do for our kids is amazing and we deserve a pat on the back.

Last night xH again has babysitter pick up the girls to take them to his place. It was a really difficult hand off. Definitely tougher because he wasnt able to come - he was working. He uses work as a place to run and hide.

I walked the girls with babysitter to his place. D5 did not want me to leave. She had more questions about why daddy doesnt live with us anymore. It was really painful.
She deosnt want to see Frozen with Daddy she want to see Frozen with me! Really sweet.

Then she starts asking why Daddy doesnt live with us and I say Daddy wants to live someplace here. He doesnt want to live in our house because he doesnt want to live with me. Then she says but you want to live with Daddy right? I didnt know how to answer that because I dont want him anymore - especially when I watch what he is doing to our kids. I answer I dont know.

I dont think I handled the conversation perfectly but I also dont want to lie to our D5. It is very important that she know the truth, obviously she is only 5 she cant understand everything but I am not going to start feeding her a false story that this was a mutual thing. I will tell her my truth. Xh is free to tell her his truth.

I hate him so much sometimes. It really didnt have to be this way. He is such an absentee father and doesn't even acknowledge all I do for our kids.