I feel very anxious this morning. I have been awake since 3:30. lots to do with kids today. My W just pulled in and dropped D13 off for the morning.

I know that she's over at the barn alone. Although its tempting to offer to bring coffee and see her for a few minutes, I will not. In convo with my Db coach she asked that I practice patience and wait for an invitation if possible. W needs to initiate too.

I already brought coffee and visited with her on New years Day. Back then, I asked W if she enjoyed the visit and would like to do it again. She said yes. I told her, she'd have to ask me. Coach thought that was perfect. now she says, I must wait.


me: 47, W:49
M 16.5 years
T 17 years
Three kids - D17,D14, S13
Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13
Bomb drop 11/29/13
W moved out 12/5/13
I Retained L 2/20/14
D filed 3/17/14