I mentioned that just before Christmas my one client, that has been my employment and a big part of my identity for 15 years, terminated my contract effective this summer. I have one more big to produce, where I have a lot of stress putting out or preventing potential fires and ensuring everything comes off without a hitch, which is offset by the wonderful love and attention I get from members who are always very positive and appreciative of the event. There are a couple of board meetings to run as part of it all, where I'm working indepth for several hours and over dinner with the folks who fired me.
[To Rich, as an example, over the past few years prebomb I would come home from all of that to H letting me know that he did not miss me, things were better with me gone, and no he wasn't interested in ML]
But back to this year. This year, I have learned that my replacements are flying in to be underfoot for the entire meeting and attend the board meetings. This is challenging to my PMA and I'm using all my best DB skills to try to get through it. I'm not really very happy about this when I'm completely honest.
I'm collecting mantras to help when I get emotional at a time that I really need to not be. I'm taking excellent care of myself and getting busy looking for a new job, which alternates between ego boosting and ego crushing, so I guess having an ego that is independent of being employed is necessary (detachment).
But on the weekends, in private, I am a bit unhappy about this, quite a bit, yes really very angry and sad.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
