Limbo is the new normal

[slow_it_down]

I wish I could say I've been handling this visit from MIL with patience and grace. Unfortunately I let my emotions take over and turned very mean toward H to vent my displeasure.

Fortunately I stopped myself from digging the hole any further and apologized. My H acknowledged the stress of his mom on us and forgave me.

It was a profound feeling for me to be able to make a mistake, apologize and get forgiveness after walking on egg shells for the past few months. I'm really proud of how my H handled the situation and how he's handling his moms visit. He's becoming a guy I really admire.

I won't see H's mom much since she's staying at H's during her visit. Perhaps just when shuttling our S back and forth between our houses to see her. She's been very weird the last 2 months and I don't understand what I ever did to set her off against me. I spent 2 weeks w/ her when S was born and another weekend after that. Now she's acting like she does not want me and H together. She booked this trip after H told her he spent Christmas at my house instead of having S at his place. Maybe she still thinks we are totally separated and I'm not allowing him to take the baby and she's here to force the issue. It's so frustrating to try and stay in good terms w/ my S's grandmother when she just doesn't want me in H's life all-of-a-sudden. Her buying duplicates of all the baby stuff we already have at my house and sending my S a present at both houses is sending a very odd message.

Anyways, not much I can do but lay low and stay upbeat until she heads out. No use trying to figure out heat she 'a thinking because as I've learned mind reading gets me no where.