Me too GM and thanks . Your POV is always welcome, you know that. And we will just have to take it as it comes.
But the most major thing is I was absolutely ready to drop the rope and actually push him off with one foot- Bon voyage.
So I know I have that strength and that is invaluable to me.
I continue to do what I set out to do with my life, over a year ago. I am still growing, exploring and seeing who I am outside of H. I am pretty sure that person has been here all along, she was just subsumed and neglected.
H doesn't know who he is at all. He is beginning to find out..
Can I say I am not going to be hurt at the end of this all? Nope Can I guarantee a life with this man I love? Nuh-uh.
I can say, today, however, I have no regrets. Okay maybe I regret feeding the delicate stomached dog leftovers, but I digress (oh, and painting my apartment pink, cuz it was on sale...and cheap red wine from Chile.... ).
Today was good.
I can't really regret a thing because it brings me smack up against the person I am today. Someone I really am beginning to enjoy.
So could this all be a huge mistake ? Yup. But I know I won't regret it it