I want a new marriage to the same woman! I want to experience intimacy and love with her on a level that neither of us knew or understood how to give. I want to romance this woman and experience her and understand her, and I desire that she also provide that for me.
But only if she chooses this. I don't want something fake. If she chooses differently, then I will take what I am learning, take the man I am becoming - and trust God to lead me in new ways.
So I stand at a crossroads. I don't know how long I will stand here. But I see two futures - equally frightening, equally exhilarating.
I think that this is a great goal. Part of this journey is realizing that you cant go back to your prior marriage, but that there is still hope down the road for a new R, a new M. I thought a lot about this around NYE. I may have to face the official end of my M, but there is also a small possibility that I may get to fall in love with my H all over again. It was amazing the first time and I know that I am in a much better place this time. I hope that we all get to fall in love with our spouses again Just knowing that it is possible gives me strength to continue to improve myself so that I am ready if the opportunity presents itself.
Just knowing that it is possible gives me strength to continue to improve myself so that I am ready if the opportunity presents itself.