So, on my quest to live life for me and my family, not concerning, myself with my MLCer, I am off to warm claimant. Two weeks+ starting Jan 17th. My adult kids can fend for themselves and my H can do what he does. He doesn't deserve me anymore!

He has been what I call "MLC" nice. We laugh, cook for each other, even flirt and sometimes ML, but it's not L, it's familiar. Its been a while like this with no further improvements. He is passing his time of me caring about a future with him.

I was hoping, but not expecting, the start of the reconciliation part of this, but he is who he is now, and I am not going to allow myself to be a part of that person.

I believe he is unhappy with himself, but has come to some sort of peace with himself as well. He still maintains his EA friendship and has made no attempt to be anything other than what he chooses to be.

I am very content with myself at this point and am ready to go about my days without worrying about how it will affect him, or any repercussions of my actions. I am finally content being me, untethered from him.

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!