Today, I just missed my friend. I missed being able to pick up the phone and talk about anything, without it being awkward. I realized that for half of my life, he was my partner and teammate. Now, H is simply the father of my children and really has no relationship with me. We are not husband/wife, gf/bf or friends.
I agree that a lot of things are really just convenience issues. Lucky for me, my H checked out over a year ago so I was forced to become more independent. H stopped taking care of our yard, so I did some research and found a good company that could mow our lawn and do some lawn maintenance (there is no way I can mow with three little ones running around). I took over the bills. Although I am not super handy around the house, I have complied a list of plumbers, contractors, etc to help in emergencies. Last week, our kitchen sink started leaking. I called up a plumber and had his fix the sink and fix a few other things around the house. It feels good not to be dependent on someone else.
