When you say you're missing your H, I think it's good practice to identify just what it is you're missing. You don't have to do that here but I think it a good exercise to note those things.
There were 2 very specific things I missed about having my H around, the rest I identified were convenience issues that could be taken care of by me or others.
One time on a drive to PHX in the summer, my car wouldn't start after stopping a rest area. In the past I would have called H, and he would have taken it on.
I had to figure out how best to replace that. Triple AAA.
All of these steps toward me taking care of me, allowed me to detach more and break my dependence on him.
I could be OK, better than OK on my own.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
