Hoping to still move forward, huge setback

[cbtdad]

Thanks for posting JonF. Just cress your post on piecing forum. I will post over there. But thanks for sharing your experiences with your wife. I believe the less I bring up past the more it helps. My only concern is that I have to let it go regardless because she will have hard time ever letting it go. She is friends with OM's friends now. She will run into people in the same circles with him always because of her horse riding. This is were trust becomes upmost importance with me. The good news is I do trust her. The bad news i still have those nagging thoughts in my head telling me not to. They have gotten better and better over time and they get a lot a better when we don't discuss the past.
This past couple of weeks have been by far the best since we began reconciling our marriage. It has taken a long long time to get here and still have a long long way to go.
LTH, you know I want that physical connection so bad.
I think we had a major breakthrough with MC today. For the first time in weeks we didn't have to go back and talk about an argument or fight or blowup or anything like that over the week we haven't seen him. So it allowed MC to start diving into past. He began with W and she actually began to open up about her childhood. If you knew my W you would realize this is a huge deal. It's like a vault. She uses humor to deflect it all the time and he called her out on it and it worked. Looking forward to more because I think this gets to some of her issues with physical touch. Not sex, but holding hands, kissing, cuddling, etc
The affection is really want I'm looking for. The sex is a by product. I haven't instigated and its been over a week since we have had sex. But in ok with it because I know it's a process that we are working on. I believe it starts with the affection and love first