No Death, but devastated none the less, H went over the edge.

H worked hard for 10 yrs to buy huge property, land, single bedroom for college son to return, kitchen for chef son to cook, dining room for me to serve family dinners for the generation, and his private study for maps and history.

We walked the land for a yr. Surveyed, planned and announced to family. Wall street hits, builder go under, existing house is worth nothing.

At the same time I went in for back surgery. H said I was broken because that's the way society wants us. He is a failure and he has lived his life for nothing. College son came home to live on back porch, and work was so slow it ate up our savings.

He has never come back from that. H was raised very poor and had convinced himself that hard work and money was the only important thing in life, and you get rewarded as so for being "a good person". So why be good!

We are worse off than before because of MLC. Funny thing is we fell in love in a large studio at 20ys old in Chicago. We had a Flintstone car, a cat with fleas, ate burritos, or spaghetti every night, living off of college money, and that was better than this!

He is and seems he will always remain, an angry, vindictive, self loathing, dishonest, broken man, who forgot what's important in life.


The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!