There's little point in ruminating over one's future feelings. We've no idea what they will be.
Try these...
Today I will do the next right thing
Love is consistent with an open future
Today I will own my every choice and every action, they are mine and I will not hold other's accountable for them
Love is not a duty, nor an entitlement. Hearts shrivel from resentments rooted in the beliefs that there is a duty to love or that one is entitled to love from anyone else. Freedom makes space for deep love and intimacy. Today I will expand the space to live more freely and authentically in my life so that I know when I act from love and for love.
Today I will take care of myself and find a way to be good to another.