Oh also, yesterday afternoon after telling me he got laid off. H mentioned he might want to take me out to dinner, and maybe son too.

I didn't even know what to make of this. Seriously. No clue.

I ended up replying to his message that I would be happy to go if it was something he wanted to do, but that he didn't need to do that for my sake. That I know he already has a lot on his plate right now. I told him it was up to him.

He never replied and we didn't go. I did ask if he would like to eat dinner here, and he did. So I did cook for him... I thought a little kindness under the circumstances was a good thing.

All I really wanted was for him to hug me and tell me everything would be okay. But I know that's asking too much. Such a simple, stupid thing is too much.


me-35
WAS-37
T-16 1/2
Son-14 (HF Aspergers)
BD,ILYBINILWY,"I met my soulmate": Oct5,2013
"Letting go because I love him, holding on because I love him."