Look what the cat dragged in! (TL) - Act 3

[tigerlily78]

Well, as if the MLC roller coaster wasn't enough stress. H got laid off from his job on Monday. He waited until yesterday to tell me, and I suspect if I hadn't asked a question specifically about work that he might have put off telling me even longer.

I asked, "So, what's going on with work lately? You don't seem as busy now as you usually are this time of year."

So messaged me back that his work laid of many people on Monday and he was one of them. I cried and swore and went running and then tried to keep to myself mostly. All in all I think I handled it okay. Told him I didn't blame him and I had confidence in his skills as a programmer and his ability to get another job, but I know it is hard and other people aren't always capable of seeing his potential.

This was not completely unforeseen. We knew about a year ago that his team at the company was working on a product that was going to be phased out. I had encouraged him to start looking for a new job at the time, even browsed some job psoting and sent him the ones I thought he might be interested in. But then after a couple months of that he told me he didn't want to go through the trouble and hassle of getting a new job yet. So I stopped with the "help." I guess the not proactively seeking another job, knowing this one would very likely be ending was probably another MLC behavior.

He gets 12 weeks of severance pay, so that's something. Tuesday when he was home he was in a GOOD MOOD. Had good interactions with our son. Told him he was proud of him for making his own lunch... and now I can't even wrap my head around that. "I just lost my job and I feel great!"

We have no insurance effective immediately (wtf). My son has an appointment Friday to get his meds refilled by his psychiatrist (big waste of time and money even when we were insured). So I had to call them and see what they could accept for an out of pocket payment to see him anyways. $65... so tolerable.

I don't think I slept at all last night. Feeling rather worn out today. We had something of a yelling argument through the door to his den, and I am ashamed to admit I basically initiated it. I was pissed off that he bothered to come in and use the bathroom in the master bedroom while I was asleep, thus further disturbing my attempt to sleep... and then didn't come and lay with me. We DO have another bathroom he could have used. The argument eventually escalated to him saying, "I'm done. We're done forever." But I know that is just something most of them say and don't really mean most of the time... it's not like he actually took any action. Instead he has listened to music and played computer games the entire time since.

Just really feeling fatigued and stressed right now. Just when I thought I was starting to settle in to some level of acceptance and being able to cope, life found more lemons to put in my cart.