Youve been married for 9 years and together for 10....How else do you expect to get new/different experiences.

I had so much guilt for going out in the beginning I was dry heaving

ME 38 W 37
T18 M5
D3
BD 1/7/13
PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing
2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13
W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13
First mediation appt 12/19/13