I’ve reading your updates with the great interest. Sometimes I think that if I would be in your situation, I would be very worried and unsecure about whether I could trust H again, worried about him changing his mind again. I’m glad that you feel that things are working out for you and you are having fun with H.
BF, I was a worrier. I wasted a lot of time and missed out on much happiness by worrying and attempting to control outcomes, trying to guard against "what-ifs," most of which never happened.
I really have no fear about 'what-if he changes his mind?' What I've gained in this process is confidence in me. If he does change his mind, I'm sure it would be unpleasant but I'll be fine. I can be on my own and be OK, even better than OK.
I strive to be mindful and in the moment. I only have this day, this hour, this moment to deal with.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
