An End/Beginning of Year Update

[adinva]

I loved my husband with all my heart. I wanted to be a good wife, and I wanted to be sexy and desirable.

And there were some times I said no because frankly my love tank was so low, my resentments were so great, my exhaustion was also great, and on top of that to be treated like a spec all day and then asked to summon *desire* and *enthusiasm* ...

I would have cried all through the sex.

I can't tell you what specifically happened that day but I can remember that day clearly just by the emotion it conjures up of I.CANNOT.DO.THAT. Not today.

So, the idea that you can lie on your back and satisfy your man is way oversimplified. Real humans don't work like that. Unless you wouldn't mind tears all through it.