One year in but a newbie

[Lifes Twists]

Prednisone is steroid that can affect people differently. I fell in to the group that are affected extremely. I would go from extremely agitated to completely down in the dumps. I would be awake for 3 or 4 days at a time and then maybe get an hour or 2 of sleep. I never threatened or used physical violence. When I was extremely agitated I would wave my arms and such. The reason that I was not released to my wife was the head doctor did not trust that my wife would take care of me or watch out for me. She felt my wife had already checked out.

I did expect my family to support me in my illness. Unfortunately my wife has suffered from depression since she was in her teens. She has been on maximum dose of antidepressants with little to no supervision by the medical profession. I do worry that with her depression that DB'ing will not work.

I believe my wife had been working on my daughters all the time we were in MC. I also think my wife had enlisted the help of her sister to also work on the girls for quite a while and this period of my illness was just the opening that was needed.

I have almost finished reading DR. I am trying to apply what I have read there and the rules as well. Recently I have started to detach and pull back. I was always the one to contact her during the day and see how her day was going. I do find it hard to not do what I have always done during our 20 years of marriage. I have started to see though that it works. She lasts about 3 days at a time and then finds some reason to contact me. I will continue this pattern as well as look for other patterns I can 180. I cannot go total non contact as I have the three girls to be concerned about.