So while the text fest is too long to get into, I've said basically that I am uncertain he can find out what he wants if I am always there.
That I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him but I am also strong enough to hear that is not what he wants if he says so.
He says he doesn't know what he wants or even if what he wants is him really responding to others.
I said that perhaps he needs to not be in my life at all except as a parent to our kids so he can find his own path.
I basically said that if he wants to work on a relationship that is fine, but if I am the choice that makes it easy and safe for him it is not so fine.
Now I want to take it all back!!! Lol. Hardest thing I've done lately, but it been wreaking havoc on my life.
No reply yet, will post what's what
Send me positive thoughts and strength that I can walk this path either way.
