Separation, divorce, help to not lose hope/faith

[Pampkin]

My girlfriend introduced me to yoga in September. I took one class and I was hooked! I started going three times a week and this made my husband very suspicious. One day, he asked me why i was going to yoga all the time. i don't know what happened to me that day but i snapped. we got in a huge fight. i slept on the couch that night. it was the first time in 13 years that we went to bed angry. a week later, he said he wanted a D. I've been a wreck since.

I have been giving him time and space. I have been patient , kind, and understanding. I dont' call or text unless it is work related. I try to be as happy as I can around him. I have read the book and have done some 180s. I have been working on myself and H says he sees a lot of good changes in me. Still with all the good, all the love that is still here, he doesn't want to save our M.

Adding to my heartache, H knows that I want to start a family. I'm in my 30s and feel that my biological clock is ticking. At a time when I thought that I'd have children, I get slapped with D instead. I hate this feeling of hopelessness. I just want to see a light at the end of the tunnel.