I don't believe it's my ego, PS. Don't get me wrong. I have a big one, and it has been royally bruised throughout this journey. However, my W truly was the love of my life.
I realize there has been so much damage, (the hurtful words, the harsh actions, the OM, the separation of friends and family), that a R would literally take a miracle. I do however, feel that we were meant for each other, at least at one time. We loved very strong and jumped through serious hoops to start our life together. I know it went sideways. I accept that. I know her feelings don't mimic mine, and I accept that as well, but it has NEVER made sense to me that it should have ended. The demise of our marriage will come with a great cost to all of us, Me, Wife and daughter. I only wish she could have seen that.
With that said, she is cooling towards me. I think some of the anger between us has lessened. She has lifted her "block" on FB that she had on me and several of our friends. She has started "liking" some of the pictures I put up of daughter. She is making an effort to be nice when we text about D. I am as well. I think that will go a long way towards co-parenting for the next 11 years. When I got home from work today, W had left a condolence card in my mailbox. She added a personal note saying, she was sorry for my loss and that my niece was a great person. She ended the card with, "I will always be there for you if you need me". I felt like sending her a text saying, "I wish that were true, because your daughter and I have needed you for a long time now. Where have you been?"...... It's just another sad time for me. Too many memories, heartaches and regrets. This too shall pass.....
