Callie, so sorry to hear of the death in your family.
I can see how that affects your thinking with your own sitch.
In regards to the kids and H still being around.... I had the exact same thought the other day about my H.
My H still lives at home....but I wondered if I would have tried so hard and put up with so much crap if we didn't have kids to worry about.
It makes it very hard for us, as moms...and as women. We have to be so strong for not only ourselves, but our kids, as well. It can really make you weary sometimes.
With that said, I think you have done so well with the DBing, in a very sad and tough situation. Your H is very emotional...and that has to be very hard on you. Yet, you've maintained your dignity and class. You've been a rock to your kids.
Remember that the way you feel today may not be how you feel tomorrow. Take care of yourself...and while I have no useful advice or help....I'll send hugs.
