Thanks guys. I'm suffering bad at the minute. I've been so positive, proactive and dedicated to DBing from the start. But the death in my family has really rocked me. I think I'm worried that life is just to short to play these silly games. I want to be with someone that loves me, that cares about me, that wants to be a good father. I don't want to have to remind my husband that he does really love me and that his kids need him.
I really do think my H still loves me. But his fog is thick. This depression has taken a strong hold of him and I'm not sure I can put my life on hold for much longer for him.
I know it's not really on hold, I'm building my life, getting on with things and protecting the kids. But I think if I didn't have to worry about his access with the kids, then I'd be doing things differently.
If this was a traditional split then I wouldn't have him anywhere near my house.....I wonder if that would be easier.....
M32 H37 DD1 6 DD2 5 M6 T10 EA 31.08.13 Separated and H moved out 19.09.13 ILYBINILWY 23.09.13 OW 11.13