Thanks guys. I'm suffering bad at the minute. I've been so positive, proactive and dedicated to DBing from the start. But the death in my family has really rocked me. I think I'm worried that life is just to short to play these silly games. I want to be with someone that loves me, that cares about me, that wants to be a good father. I don't want to have to remind my husband that he does really love me and that his kids need him.

I really do think my H still loves me. But his fog is thick. This depression has taken a strong hold of him and I'm not sure I can put my life on hold for much longer for him.

I know it's not really on hold, I'm building my life, getting on with things and protecting the kids. But I think if I didn't have to worry about his access with the kids, then I'd be doing things differently.

If this was a traditional split then I wouldn't have him anywhere near my house.....I wonder if that would be easier.....


M32 H37
DD1 6 DD2 5
M6 T10
EA 31.08.13
Separated and H moved out 19.09.13
ILYBINILWY 23.09.13
OW 11.13