The separation/divorce is the greatest personal failure in my life.

Ive learned that my dreams of getting my wife back were partially based on my ego.

When I get her back it proves im better then OM
When I get her back it proves im that great a person
When I get her back I prove that im not living in Fantasyland
When I get her back she will once again admit she f'd up
When I get her back I will have been right

But i believe it was AS who kicked my arse one night and told me that I lost my best friend...she isnt coming back. If my W did come back, she may look like her.....but it wont be her.

Are your dreams of her coming back really just bruised ego?????

ME 38 W 37
T18 M5
D3
BD 1/7/13
PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing
2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13
W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13
First mediation appt 12/19/13