DJ,

I totally understand your feelings. I find now that my W is home I have less time to do as much reading, praying, journalling and self reflection. I too had found some new routines that have been changed a bit since she is here.

The way I look at it though, is it is really helping me be happy with myself when my W is out with friends. I can go out with friends too, but I now am just a secure enjoying a night alone doing what I did while she was seperated from me. I actually look forward to come of those times to have more "for myself relaxation"

I am so happy she is here, but now I am comfortable when she is not. Amazing, I may actually be finding the loving detachment that I needed, and its bettered myself be being able to be happy alone as well.

As I type this, its a revelation to me...As my biggest fear has always been to be alone. Its amazing how much a journey like this can change a person, especially when we are trying to better ourselfs (for ourselves and our spouses).

If feel good, enjoy it. God works in mysterious ways.

God Bless You, Reuben Cautiously hopeful and keeping the Momentum