Just one more thing in answer to Crimson's post, I had to live my life and let go of him and his. Fact: He no longer wanted to be with me so I had to decide how much of my life I was willing to give to a person who didn't want me in their life.
After 33 years of being together, it took me a while to get there but I always had my eyes on that goal of detachment.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss