I am glad to see you are in a "better place" these days. So its not perfect yet? So what! All is a work in progress, yes?
I think AJ appreciated your journalistic approach. There does seem to be a large portion of the scientist/objectivist in you (such as the "oh give me a month and I'll be tip-top) and that is certainly nothing to apologize for! It isn't a common perspective - but it is a valuable one.
I hear you on the anger. It still engulfs me from time to time. H will ask something like, "Where's the salt?" and I instantly envision salting his liver... he'll just go on eating his eggs like he hasn't a concern in the world while I seethe lol. But fortunately it passes quickly now most of the time.
I don't have any answers right now. For anyone. I'm working on that condition not festering in me. Working on living with the unknown. I do realize, have come to realize, that I have always lived with the unknown - I just didn't know it lol. But the illusion of stability has shattered. And with that break the parameters of life as I know it also shattered. So now I'm learning to walk and talk and think and breath all over again. In some ways, to my surprise, its better now than pre bd. And in other ways it bites the big wazoo.
Glad other areas of your life are on the upswing! And your thread title made me laugh
Take care Portia!!
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
