oh okay- i probably have to admit this is part of my problem in all this anyway. (the ending it- letting go of "it" "h", etc.
i met this h almost the minute i moved to fla (1975 -) got a new job and had gotten married a few weeks earlier. i was not looking for a darn thing-i didn't know anything about how my new h was anything but great - i didn't fall in love rite then - but i met him, and we appreciated each other personality in a very very casual - office person way - he went back to finish school for a year- didn't have contact- but he did show up a year later- in front of my desk and i realized - there was "something".
it was as dopey and little as that- but i can see how it morphed into what it did- and it all happened outside of me realizing it- wanting it or even thinking about it. it just had a life of it's own.
i just slowly little by little began to think & realize this was a better person for me. for many many reasons- he still is a better person and was a better person..... (it has been alot of great years) (soooo mrs. lincoln, aside from that, how did you like the show?)
so , anyway- if i am at a point of "failure" with him now- idk where the heck it fits into this story- PERHAPS it truly is his mlc- idk honestly- and i'm not givng that airtime anymore- the FIGURING out ...
SOMEHOW- BECAuse it all happened that way soooooo long ago- I am left believing IN THAT other PROCESS. LOVE, magic, fate, good fortune - allll the above.
so kill me- my stinkin cup is still half full - even the days when i feel like total pooh & the party's over...
