Day By Day

[tadpole1025]

Thank you Job. It does take time and it does get better. I just wish it would go away completely.

Just wanted to post a quick update on me and on mom.

Me:

My anxiety seems to be coming back. I seem to have it just at night when trying to sleep. It is the weirdest feeling and seems to be getting worse. I think a lot of it has to do with mom now in addition to my sitch. My boys are doing good and the two youngest start college next week.

Mom:

She has taken a bad turn in the last week. We've had to move her back into Hospice. She had a good Thanksgiving and Christmas like she wanted and seemed to be fine even through New Years. Since then though, she has declined rapidly. She can no longer talk, swallow, walk or even keep her eyes open. She now has a catheter and the doctor told me today that she has days left "at the most." As I said, she has declined sharply. She told me months ago that she would make it through the holidays and she made her goal. Now though, I believe she has given up. She is tired of fighting. Watching someone that I love, admire and respect is the hardest thing I've seen. Knowing that I can do nothing at all to help her breaks my heart.

Tad