melissag VIII - but I'm afraid to have no fear!

[melissag]

I know I am yammering a lot tonight. Apologies to those who actually try to keep up with my sitch.

I found another thing to add to my gratitude list. DBing.

My H about knocked me out yesterday with his "I don't want to be married now or ever to you or anyone else" declaration, and I'll admit it has taken me about 24 hours to start to get some perspective. But in the meantime, I did not do what I think normal, non-DBing people would do, which is freak out, scream, blame, cry, etc. (OK, I did all that one here but not to him LOL.) To him, I was very calm about it and even made a joke with him later to show him I wasn't going to do any of that stuff. Made it through today the same, and tonight he texted to ask me if he could have the kids another extra night this week - I asked if he could just do dinner and he agreed, and I thanked him and agreed to the day he picked. Then I decided to just be nice and I said "g'night" (normally I would just ignore him after that) and he said "good night" and "hope you feel better."

I am not saying that he is going to R with me, but it's amazing how nice people are when you are nice to them. And even though my H is hurting me like nothing else, I am still grateful that we are able to communicate that way rather than blaming and shaming.

OK, I'll go to bed now and avoid the 1,000,000th post of the day.