CC, sorry you are feeling sad. Isn’t it interesting though that when you don’t see your H you remember him like he was before this started, right. When you see him you realize that the H you knew is not there at the moment.
I caught myself on a similar thought yesterday, when my GF told me that she saw my H at the vacation home place. The way she described his behavior brought me back into the reality. I haven’t seen him for a long time before he came to the house a couple of weeks ago. So, I realized that H is still so much in a partying mood and I could just picture him so vividly. I felt no respect for him at that moment and I felt that I didn’t miss this version of H.
Hang in there. It will get better.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
