melissag VIII - but I'm afraid to have no fear!

[melissag]

You cant do this because there is no such thing. There is too much history, too much love.

No one said you had to get remarried. But you are young and if it didn't work with your ex, you really don't want what you deserve and what your kids should see you have? You want to date him while he dates OW

And how long do you think a non-obligatory R with H would go on for? On HIS side?

I know, I know. I wasn't suggesting I would do it, I am just pointing out how addicted I am to my H, or desperate, or whatever you want to call it. I know it is a bad thing. What I really want is for my H to get his sh!t together and do the work he needs to do, but it sure doesn't seem like that's going to happen . . . so my mind is grasping at something, anything.

I spoke with my DB coach and I feel somewhat better. She said more or less the same thing as 3 and a few others have said - don't make a big deal out of single interactions.

I am glad that I handled the conversation fairly well and didn't go all apesh!t on him, accuse him or judge him or anything. I think he was probably expecting me to.

Today he texted me to ask about some logistics for tonight, and then said, "or do you want nothing to do with me?" Maybe he was hoping I'd be pissed and go ahead and file myself. Oh, hell no.

I have this soft spot in my heart for him, and then I tell him I can't go to TKD because I am sick as a dog . . . think he bothered with any well wishes? Nope. Sigh.

Today is such a waste of a day. I am sick and exhausted. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I can get in some GALing and PMA!!