All have been said already! Do take care of you - you are such a fantastic person! (If you are in that mood, you will properly say to yourself now: How the F does he know? And to that: You have spilled your guts in here for some time and I read you! You have been so supportive to so many of us, while hurting like cr@p inside. That takes a fantastic person!
Thank you, F. That really means a lot to me. I have always thought I was a good person, I think my H just had me convinced otherwise. It is going to take me a while to get past that, when I feel like a piece of trash thrown in the dumpster.
3, you are right . . . H didn't blame me last night. It just seems like small solace. At least if he blamed me, then maybe I could fix the things he didn't like, and he might reconsider. This pretty much feels like a death sentence. It doesn't matter who I am, what I do, what I have to offer, or that I am the mother of his children. He just wants to be selfish. I can't go up against that.
Sigh. I don't want to do this.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
I have always thought I was a good person, I think my H just had me convinced otherwise. 
It is going to take me a while to get past that, when I feel like a piece of trash thrown in the dumpster.