Yes, 2, where have you been? Thanks for dropping by.
Things are good and seem to get better everyday.
When H first moved back in, there were periods of time when I was thinking, hmmmm maybe we did this too soon. It was a LOT, getting used to having another adult in the house. Instead of reacting to the anxiety, I just sat with things and as time goes on, things are evening out and it's actually fun. We are having fun and we haven't done that for a long time. Even before he left we had gotten so closed off to each other that even when we did fun things, we weren't really having fun. (if that makes sense)
On Saturday, H put his wedding ring back on. I was surprised at how much that affected me. To catch up to the story, I had taken my wedding ring off before he did. I did it after I had a temp check conversation with him, in which he reiterated that he was in fact, still done.
I came home and took my ring off. He did it a couple of weeks later when he noted that I had mine off. I was hurt by that, and was surprised by the hurt.
But now we both have the rings back on, an outward symbol of the internal commitment.
And so it goes.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss