The end of Limboland

[mj0221]

Tired,
I've been busy trying to stay focused on my goals and unfocused on what H is doing. I've noticed for weeks now I don't focus on what he may be doing. I'm now just in the mad stage with him. I'd much rather be there than depressed and crying all the time. Mainly mad of course for D11. I know he will deeply regret what he has done to her one day. He went from having a daddy's girl that did EVERYTHING with him to he shut her out of his life. He officially has spent 3 "times" with d11 in a year coming up in February and one of those as Christmas Day for 8 min. Yes I counted because I was so shocked it was over so quick.

Mad, yes I am. If this man ever woke up and came back to me.......he would have to win me back. There would be no letting him in the door without counseling and a lot more work which he thinks he doesn't need now. Granted, I'm fairly certain he won't ever come back. For one, he has too much pride.

I'm moving along, taking care of things. I still have my sad days here and there that creep in but I journal and move along, email my IC, he likes for me to email him on those days so he can use at sessions.

Next big "first big day" anniversary of when H left, also D11 birthday, 2/22. Coincendentally he decided to move out on her birthday without telling her or acknowledging her birthday. I think that day will be big for me and her.

Overall, I THINK I may be muddling through the water as a LBS at a little bit faster pace now.