Mainly my heart. I came to the point where I finally DETACHED. Which meant I was thinking clearly, possibly for the 1st time, and came to the realization that I could not keep holding on to someone who obviously did not want me, most likely won't ever want me, and still maintain my own mental and physical health.
I am not "well" yet. But I have had some wonderful times over the last 6 months, and I have hope that I will be completely ok in the near future.
I never thought I would be ok before without her. But I was wrong.
Now I just want to rip the bandaid off and be done worth the divorce. If this is not the place to talk about that, I completely understand.
I want to thank everyone who ever replied to my posts "back then" because you really helped me out. It's been so long I can't remember many names...(25, sandy, labug, crimson come to mind) as I read again I'm sure more will come back.
So, if it's ok, anyone else want to discuss the process of going ahead with the D? How to cope? How to not let this happen again?
DM
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
