So sorry things are moving in that direction. I will say that just because she says she is working on the papers doesnt mean she is.
I am sorry she got into an accident and that alcohol is involved. Thank God she is ok.
As for your feelings being all over the place, limbo can do that to you.
I know it's so hard to get your mind around all this. The thing is that many times the MLCer has to see it through. Doesnt mean there isnt still hope for the future if you still have it.
She may need to go through with this in order to come out the other side. She will see that she is still not happy. And she wont be, because she is not out of crisis. The hope is that she will then look within.
I will tell you that she can feel that you are not moving forward. She can feel that you are not accepting this. As long as she does, she will feel the need to pull away. Because you see, in her mind, you arent hearing her.
As hard as it is, you need to accept that this is how it is at the moment. I will not always be.
You need to continue to move forward and live your life. Keep growing, keep challenging yourself, GAL as much as you can, try new things.
Remember that your children are watching. You get to show them how to navigate through life's tough spots. Show them well.
I know this isnt what you want, sweetie. But its what you got right now. Your choice on how you do it.
I think you will do it with dignity, strength and courage.
