On Thursday I had to call 911 and go to the hospital due to severe abdominal pain. Turned out I had coughed so much and so hard from recent cold that I tore a muscle in my stomach and started bleeding internally. They stopped the bleeding and kept me in the hospital for 2 nights. I was pretty bad ... couldn't move for a day or two without horrible pain. Am home now and doing much better although I have severe restrictions on activity.
Contacted H right away, of course. His response .. OMG ... do you need me to come home?? Really? How am I supposed to respond to that? He had a big move scheduled for this weekend and started telling me the ramifications of having to change everything but kept saying he would come home if I "needed" him to. He finally told me that he needed to hear me say "I need you here" and he would come home, but he needed to hear those words.
I just told him that I would like him to come home, that I wanted him to come home, but I didn't "need" him here. So, of course, he stayed and proceeded on with his plans for his main mistress, that damned factory.
Now that I am on the mend, I am getting angrier and angrier. I can't help but wonder what would have to happen here for him to feel like it was at least as important as the operation over there. If I had told him I needed him here, he would have ended up blaming me for delays over there. I feel like he put me in a place of having no choice but to tell him to stay there.
So do I say something ... If so, what???
I am just so tired of competing with that damned factory. It is the most important thing in his life ... no question. I hate it and see it as the source of all the unhappiness in my life. He knows that, but he just keeps moving forward and deeper. I am so ready to just tell him have a great life ... that I am finished!
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
