Trying to get back on track. Things bother me. I'm a thinker.
Mutual woman friend told me some things yesterday. Things she's kept from me about my W. Some things were hopeful and some not. My W wasn't happy for awhile. After our trips every 6 months things would be good again. She was unhappy here. She's realizing that not all problems were mine, she's responsible too. She wanted to try for our M but started to talk to OM online. This distracted her, closed her off. Yet she still attempted work in M. A few days before she left she told this mutual friend and another that she was talking to OM. W told her not long after she left she thought marriages were failures and she would never marry again. They've talked about our other issues but with more details than what W was giving me. She misses things out here, and friends, all their kids, even me and things with me. Seems to be showing some level of regret and guilt.
This friend told me if I really believe we can work things out and accept and get past the affair then I should wait. Which is something I thought about and want to be patient. How long is the question.... I believe we can do it.
GAL has been going good. Reconnected with friends, going out, exercise and some weight loss.
I need to get back to reading and focusing on me. It's becoming more difficult. Also thought stopping about the affair isn't working as well now. Well some days are better than others.
