Today I wrote a letter to my father. I respectfully asked that he abstain from sharing my personal situation with my older sister. I thanked him again for his support both emotionally and monetarily.
Right now my sister believes it is her business and disapproves of my parents giving me any money. From someone who did so much taking throughout her whole life, it does frost me that she is not only judging me, but querying my mother as to if she has given me any money too. Unbelievable...
It's bad enough I find myself where I am. It's humiliating that my business is being discussed and shared without any thought to how I may feel about it. Now family politics are a superfluous added stress, in my already anxiety ridden life . UUUUGH!
So dancing was awesome tonight. Something was said to me tonight , and I'm not feeling very comfortable about it. This guy who is kind of funny and flamboyant, gave me a huge hug as I entered the dance .
He wanted to dance immediately and was very touchy feely, arm around me, stroking my back. He also blurted out that he was so glad I came and that he had "affection" for me. Now I have NO clue what this means, and I'm glad he stuck to the dance rules and danced with others, while allowing me to the same.
Please tell me that he just finds me someone that he wishes to just be friends. He said some other things too. He was glad that he told me what he did, and that he feels the way he does not only because " I'm a good dancer ".
I don't want to get involved with ANYONE and certainly not this guy. I don't want to hurt his feelings, and I actually wear my wedding band with a sapphire ring, rather than my engagement ring. I do this to kind of protect myself
So please tell me this guy doesn't "like" me...
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
