Chinks in the Armor & still Standing on that Hill

[Pudmuddle]

Bright, Dragon, Portia, thanks for the comments. I do appreciate all the views since sometimes it is hard to see what is right in front of you.

Bright, I see and feel the pain you are in. I can't imagine someone dropping off the face of the earth like that. I think Dragon had some good advice, I hope to catch up with your sitch soon.

Portia, I'm not trying to stifle my emotions, but learning to detach is hard work, when you've been busting out for such a long time. I'm getting there. I'm learning how to deal with my emotions in a better way, slowly. And for now I am letting him swing in the wind, since that's where he wants to be right now.

So with all that, I really don't have much of an update. Since I asked him to move out, things have gone back to normal, mlc normal. He has been pleasant and nice, hasn't mentioned anything R related, and I haven't cared. I have been getting out more, going to a rec center I found which turned out to be very nice inside and has tons of activities to do. Hot tub, lazy river, swimming pool, exercise classes, weights, bikes, all kinds of things! I could be gone for 3 hours a night doing my own thang!

I have mostly been retreating to my room when I am here and letting him be on his own. He does come to my room more often to ask me things. But that's it for now, nothing new or fabulous. I'll try to catch up to all of your posts soon.